The Diabetic Deathwish

So I started this blog to connect with other type 1 diabetics. I was diagnosed with this treat of a disease 28 years ago at the age of 13. Unfortunately, every diabetic I ever met has been a complete masochist. One was a cocaine and heroin addict. One was a crystal meth abuser. And only other one was had a food addiction that seemed to be more destructive than the drug users. I myself am an alcoholic. Years ago I started asking, "Why?" It was then that I coined the term "Diabetic Deathwish". Trying not to make excuses for such behaviors, I truly believe that after being told we are going to lose our legs, go blind, ruin our kidneys, go into a coma at any given moment, etc., that a lot of us just say, "Screw it. I am going to live however I want." Fortunately for me, eight years after giving birth to a stillborn due to diabetic complications, I had twins:  a boy and a girl. They changed my life. I do everything I can to take care of myself now. But not every diabetic does. Everyone knows there is a depression that comes with having to think about your blood sugar every minute of every day, missing out on life and even just regular thinking patterns. But does anyone ever mature past the date of their diagnosis. I wonder. I guess I just have to figure that Nick Jonas has it under control. Can't I? This is just the beginning....stay tuned since everyone I know thinks I am the funniest person they know, there is humor in diabetes. But sometimes I'd just like to write behind the façade...